I am never be strong

I've put much effort and good deeds, yet this is what I've got. This is totally unfair. I know there's reasons, this may not the luck. But I can't help it if this keeps repeating. I am not strong.

I am weak. I am really weak. I rather have health issues, but don't let my effort just like a waste. :'( I'll be given up. I have struggled, yet things don't seem to turn the way it is. It's gone and blew by the wind just as simple as it is.

Life is hard. I wish I could be happy all the time. I wish I am good. I wish I am strong. Yet that's just wishes, wishes that won't come true, wishes that may carried you away, wishes that could pull you down when they aren't supposed to be that way..

It is unfair............